Fretting Over Worried Feelings Of Dispair

Ever have that moment? That moment of dispair? That moment you feel your whole world slipping away? I know me neither, right. So why am I always stressing? Always fretting about something. I worry at work non stop. I always have control issues. If an order is taken and I feel it hasn't been properly handled I will freak and worm my way in to get my hands around the situation.

Im like this in my own life as well. I really don't let me be me. I guard myself and if I see myself getting vulnerable I begin to try a slight humorous joke to ease the situation and then slide into a ramble followed by an awkward departure ending with me gracefully exiting the entire conversation. I couldn't begin to tell you how many potential hook ups or relationships I have robbed myself from by this annoying vice.

Fretting about my health, worried about my finances, and in dispair about the direction of my life. I bite my nails which I have not since the beginning of march(oh no baseball season is starting on Monday) Hehe! I bite my lip which some say is sexxy, but I find annoying! I guess I am just that guy, that guy who worries about everything and is comfortable with nothing.

I just watched the encore episode of the ER finale. I fell asleep on Thursday night and missed it. I never watched or like ER. I preferred Chicago Hope. It was actually touching. I also found John Stamos to be a treat. So thats where he has been hiding hehe! I really thought this show was off the air like 5 years ago lol! What happened to the OC? Just kidding I just finally seen the finale of it. Work sucks and especially when you fret about it.