Fretting Over Worried Feelings Of Dispair

Ever have that moment? That moment of dispair? That moment you feel your whole world slipping away? I know me neither, right. So why am I always stressing? Always fretting about something. I worry at work non stop. I always have control issues. If an order is taken and I feel it hasn't been properly handled I will freak and worm my way in to get my hands around the situation.

Im like this in my own life as well. I really don't let me be me. I guard myself and if I see myself getting vulnerable I begin to try a slight humorous joke to ease the situation and then slide into a ramble followed by an awkward departure ending with me gracefully exiting the entire conversation. I couldn't begin to tell you how many potential hook ups or relationships I have robbed myself from by this annoying vice.

Fretting about my health, worried about my finances, and in dispair about the direction of my life. I bite my nails which I have not since the beginning of march(oh no baseball season is starting on Monday) Hehe! I bite my lip which some say is sexxy, but I find annoying! I guess I am just that guy, that guy who worries about everything and is comfortable with nothing.

I just watched the encore episode of the ER finale. I fell asleep on Thursday night and missed it. I never watched or like ER. I preferred Chicago Hope. It was actually touching. I also found John Stamos to be a treat. So thats where he has been hiding hehe! I really thought this show was off the air like 5 years ago lol! What happened to the OC? Just kidding I just finally seen the finale of it. Work sucks and especially when you fret about it.

I am Rejuvenated!

Oh how I feel my life is not complete. I mean I have wanted to do so much. I have always wanted to do theatre. I have always wanted to dabble in comedy writing. I have always wanted to make my own sex tape. Ok Ok the last one was...done a few years ago, but I wasn't happy with the solo job! Plus I used a stunt double.

I have really been upset with the days news. Obama's Trillion doallar stimulus to buy up toxic debt, Octo-mom's children ruining our well fare services, and the fact that Cloris Leechman is returning to Dancing With The Stars which is byfar the most devastating of all these news.

I am really tired of all this Dick Chenney talk and why is he still alive. I thought we took the vp behind back and shot them during the parade. I mean Obama should have made a crass statement about Chenney and not special olympic children. Where was his teleprompter at that moment! Hehe! Should have done Letterman lol!

I guess Letterman said it best when he said nothing at all. Leno moves to 10pm soon which will be great since I don't watch him at 11:35 I will now not watch him at 10:00pm! I will however find myself staying up longer to watch Jimmy Fallon. He's cute and funny too. My kind of guy. Obama will pre-emp Idol tomorrow night and all The Adam fans will ofcourse lower Obama's approval rating come Wednesday morning. I bet it happens hehe!

Well I took a vacation from blogging and I am refreshed as I guess I can ever be. Oh well. I have a stalker nieghbor guy and some young guy flirting with me on the internet so I guess what I am trying to say is how excited I am about a new episode of The Mentalist tomorrow night!

Oh How I Loathe Newscorp

I was enjoying the night. I was outside in the fresh California air. It was so peacefull and relaxing. There I was feeling the crisp cool air against my skin. It was rejuvenating and not in the way I feel after putting on moisturizers. No it was like a renewel of my mind. I took numerous deep breaths as if I was clearing out my lungs. Then it hit me...

I was taking the trash out and all this enhaling is causing me to black out. I dumped the trash and came back home just to find out that my mother locked me out of my very own house! This was sad. I thought to myself why would she do this. My mom is such a sweet lady, but a bit ditzy. In this case she was extremely ditzy! Thank God that ditz left a window open.

So after giving her 5 minute guilt trip I was off to my office to check my Twitter and MySpace when I realized that an innocent link I left on my MySpace was disabled by MySpace and the Fox' parent company Newscorp! Why would they do such an evil thing? Is it because im to the left of them, was it the abgry e-mail I left for Greta Van Susteren? Oh well they disabled it and accused it of being spam. Yes I sent spam to myself! Dumb ass!

So now Im annoyed and debating on Youtubing a anti Fox and MySpace video and then posting it on MySpace hehe! I will Twitter it though...my hatred. I mean if I had to do all my stuff through Facebook I'd be lost. I don't understand or like Facebook one bit. Id like have to relearn all my friends. Did you ever notice how some of your friends are one way on MySpace and another on Facebook? I have...

I mean thats funny cause it's just a click away from one site to another. I can easily go straight from one to another and see how you went from a conservative on Facebook to a silly liberal on myspace while being a deviant on Twitter, and your porn video on Xtube is unacceptable...you know who you are! Or do you? Or do you?

In the end I am fine now, I just needed to come blog about it here on Blogger instead of on MySpace or adding a note to Facebook! Oh the irony!

I Am Gonna Make It After All...

I just read some exciting news, well exciting to me I guess! 20th Century Fox has finally pulled their heads out of their collective asses and are going to release The Mary Tyler Moore Show: The Complete Series on DVD! I am going to advance order tonight!

The Mary Tyler Moore show ran from 1970-1977 and won a total of 29 Emmys. That was a record until Frasier stole that crown by lasting like 11 years, but Mare did it in just 7! lol! I was so troubled and frustrated when Fox ended production on dvd set sell for Mary after only 4 seasons. I was just heartbroken.

I mean the last 3 season were the years that MTM won best comedy at the emmys. For such a groundbreaking show how could they just stop? I mean Oprah freaking Winfrey said that this show was an inspiration to her. She wanted to be Mary Richards and so did I! Stop laughing!

So now I can see the great episodes like "Chuckles Bites the Dust" and "Lou Dates Mary" won of my best. These were also the years where Mare moved to the apartment. John Ritter made his tv debut as well as Helen Hunt. These are also the years where Rhoda left to do that other show I forget what it was called! lol!

So Fox did something right, best decision since bringing Family Guy back hehe! I can't wait for May 5th! You know this show was on Nick@Nite when I was young whipper snapper. I use to watch her every night. I basically grew up watching this show as if it was on first run. I wouldn't miss an episode and no matter how many times I had seen an episode I watched it again and again, kinda how I am with Murder, She Wrote...the murderers still suprise me hehe!

I use to wish that Mary Richards could be my mother and that hurt my mother some, but Id always look mom in the eyes, smile and say...suck it up chica! I use to imagine that I had a sitcom and my mom would either be Mary Tyler Moore or Candace Bergen, cause I love me some Murphy Brown hehe! Oh how it would be such a hit! Id win an Emmy which I have always wanted, that and a Tony.

Then after a successful 11 year run we'd have 9 seasons be released on dvd just for Fox to stop, wait 3 years and release a box set containing the last 2 seasons hehe! Well atleast ill have my Mare...she really could turn the world on with her smile!