We Lost Maude and Dorothy.....All In The Same Day!

Bea Arthur played Dorothy Zbornak on NBC's 'Golden Girls' from 1985-1992. She was quick wit with a sharp tongue. She was deep voice that with certain deliveries cut you to the core. She was the reason I am the cynical boy that Ive become today! Her death hit me and hit me hard.

My friend texted me as I was working. I was in another world. My cousin had just been in an awful wreck and was clinging to life. She was on a respirator fighting to stay alive. Arthur 86, had been fighting cancer without no one knowing. I know its hard to watch someone slip away from this earth, but its just as hard to find out while you were stamping a document at your work that a loved one a beloved actress slipped away.

There is nothing you can do. Prayer? What prayer...they are already gone once you know. Uou do have that silly idea in the back of your head of that if you had only known they were dying that you could pray! That your prayer might save their life. Well Thats what went through my head. These two ladies will be missed and I will always remember them. 'Golden Girls' is always on sometime during the day, usually after Murder, She Wrote...which Arthur and Lansbury starred on Broadway together in 'Mame'!

I end with my cousin...Kirstin Williams. She was only 17 and had so much to give the world, but she had given already so much. She touched many lives as was with her place of employment. They shut down for the day to honor her. Signs were made and put along the fence infront of where she lived. Flowers, candles and stuffed dolls lined the fence in a beautiful living memorial. She was here for just a short time, but her impact will be remembered forever and ever. She will be with her lord now!

My Review and Predictions Recorded Earlier

I'm Kevelting Here!

I am lying here doing a blog cause my back is still in pain. I see the doctor on Monday, but I can't help, but to wonder what caused this. I mean I am not a weight lifter...I just do cardio and some strengthening excercizes. I am a wimp, but a former 11 time world backyard wrestling champion so don't scoff at me. Sheesh!

I did buy an abrocket, maybe that did it to me. I got it to work on my lack of abs hehe! I saw how in one month you could drop a whole dress size or two. I want to drop a dress size or tqwo, thus I bought it hehe! I am really excited to have done this. Well unless this is what happened.

I was told that it take 2 to 3 days for whatever happened to do this to someones back. Well on Easter my back was real sore so I took it easy. I didn't hunt for any eggs or eat easter dinner. I did eat some chicken. Oh I love that chicken hehe! I have to say really I am at wits end over what could have happened.

I have missed a lot of work and in this economy that aint good. I will make up for it by pan handling on the main streets. That or becoming a male gigilo, I have the legs for it lol! I am really having with drawls. I need mangos hehe! I guess what I am trying to say is you can stay away from work and get to where you need it. I know I took the long way around to get to the gist of it. I apologize hehe!

I miss my employees and the fun we have on a daily bases. I guess when I return to work Ill be refreshed and eager to go. Or maybe Ill be even more cynical...ooooh I like that better. I am able to shuffle more and more now. Its turning into a walk. I like that, I can get up using my muscular soccer legs hehe! I have issues sitting and gettintg out of bed.

I am so glad Im not a whore cause sex would suck, which is all I can do for now...just kidding....I am a gentleman hehe! I am in a lot of pain, but the meds help a lot. The first couple days they didn't and I was un movable pain. I had back spasms after be sent home from work. I cried, there I admit...I cried. Seriously that aint NO suprise when it comes to me. I cry at the drop of a hat...depends on how much I paid and how dirty hehe!

Well Ive ramble enough, I have to do some walking. The doctor said not to rest too much or the muscle gets stiff so I walk around the house like an 80 year old man. A jewish man cause I say oy vei and "Im kavelting here" its good stuff. I need a series on NBC hehe!

Back Pain and Murphy Brown!

I have been on a quest to lose weight. 2009 is a year to get healthy! I have lost 37 pounds and 3 1/2 inches. I have been feeling great. I have been feeling really great until, yesturday when out of nowhere my back locked up. I couldn't move. I was stuck! I tried to shuffle my feet which I was able to do until I was able to loosen up. Something most guys say is something I don't do hehe!

So I tried to slowly walk it off, but as the day progressed it got worst. Oh and this happened as I was at work. I was trying to make money and now I will probably have to spend it to fix this so I can work again to replace that money. Sheesh!

Well tonight I took a hot hot shower to help loosen the muscles and all I got was burned. It was really hot! I mean the mirrors were steemed and I was steemed cause I was in too much pain to re-enact the Titanic scene in the car with Leonardo and Kate. It is always a fun time for me!

So my back is in pain and I can lay down and type this and have it posted easily. I was going to make a video for youtube, but can't that will have to wait hehe! Well I am gonna end this by saying this...I was looking at tv theme songs on youtube and was reminded that Murphy Brown didn't have an opening theme song. They used songs that related to the plot of that episode, but they did have closing theme. I would like to hear that!

I miss that! Take us away Murphy!

Plant A Tree For Your Tomorrow

Arbour Day is the forgotten holiday. I feel it needs more of an influence in our country. John Denver use to sing, before he crashed into the sea, 'Plant A Tree'! He would sing this song while people planted trees. I always hear his song while I plant anything. I hear it even as I spread seeds on my cha cha chia president Obama plant!

This song and this holiday are important to me. We need trees to produce oxygen as we produce more and more carbons. We pollute and these crazy things clean it up, give us shade and even help us learn a valuable lessons as we learned on 'The Wizard of Oz' They will throw apples at you hehe!

Arbor Day is on April 24th this year and I had to look it up. It was NOT on any of my calenders at all. I did find Yom Kapur which should make all my Jewish friends happy and carefree. I bought a tv from Dell and I donated a tree to be planted by them on Arbor Day. This is my fourth year doing that with Dell.

I have tried to plant a tree every year myself as to help with the rain Forest being depleted. I even hook up a mister and recreate a rain forest for my own amusement hehe! This is a very real holiday and one people need to take seriously. We need to plant trees and plants. We also need to use it as a day to let our voices be heard. Save our trees from too much lumber. The rain forest needs to be saved. We need to be the voice of the rain forest. Unless you have breathing issues like I do then you'll never fully appreciate all that trees do for us.

So plant a tree, for your tomorrow. Plant a tree for all the world to share. Save the rain forest so we can all breathe a little easier!

Robbed I Tell You, Robbed!

Well well well, the Academy of Country Music screwed up last night! Now didn't they??? I was very excited about the telecast. This was a great night for young, impressionable little girls, but not for country fans at all. I am horrified about the outcome.

Taylor Swift winning best album for 'Fearless' when 'Troubadour' was a way better album and in my humble opinion George Strait's best. I have listened to Swift's 'Fearless' and it doesn't live up to her first album and sounds like a kids bop pop album instead of a country album. I was floored. I love Taylor, Ive hugged her and looked down at her cleavage...all while she was 17 and I felt dirty at 24!

This was a good night. Reba was hilarious and Carrie Underwood was in so many fabulous dresses that I was whistling and calling gigilos just to make it through the night. Trace Adkins did such a stirring song with the military choir and a crippled soldier. I was in tears and still not as sad as Strait being robbed.

I loved Chesney new song and Keith Urban and his sponsors were out singing to Nicole Kidman. I just love Leann Womack and laughed at Leann Rhimes who brought no one to the show. She was dateless which is weird since she dates so many, right? Lifetime anyone???

Well after being scarred by Heidi Newfield and the ring of fire and moved by John Rich and Shutting Detroit Down. David Copperfield made Taylor Swift appear and I wished he'd a made her disapear after she STOLE the album of the year award! Stole I say, STOLE! She already got a made up award along with Jennifer Neddles of Sugarland. They are growing on me.

Where in the world was Tim McGraw and Faith Hill? Were they drinking and gambling in the MGM Grand? I mean seriously Dolly Parton? Where was Barbara Mandrel, Wynona? Oh she was on an Alli commercial, but no presentation of an award. Introduce a performance? Nothing...use the greats!!! Damn it use old people as well.

Well I waited to write this after I recovered. I was so steamed that I drank cherry flavored vodka by mistake. I thought it was Dr. Pepper Cherry!

Fretting Over Worried Feelings Of Dispair

Ever have that moment? That moment of dispair? That moment you feel your whole world slipping away? I know me neither, right. So why am I always stressing? Always fretting about something. I worry at work non stop. I always have control issues. If an order is taken and I feel it hasn't been properly handled I will freak and worm my way in to get my hands around the situation.

Im like this in my own life as well. I really don't let me be me. I guard myself and if I see myself getting vulnerable I begin to try a slight humorous joke to ease the situation and then slide into a ramble followed by an awkward departure ending with me gracefully exiting the entire conversation. I couldn't begin to tell you how many potential hook ups or relationships I have robbed myself from by this annoying vice.

Fretting about my health, worried about my finances, and in dispair about the direction of my life. I bite my nails which I have not since the beginning of march(oh no baseball season is starting on Monday) Hehe! I bite my lip which some say is sexxy, but I find annoying! I guess I am just that guy, that guy who worries about everything and is comfortable with nothing.

I just watched the encore episode of the ER finale. I fell asleep on Thursday night and missed it. I never watched or like ER. I preferred Chicago Hope. It was actually touching. I also found John Stamos to be a treat. So thats where he has been hiding hehe! I really thought this show was off the air like 5 years ago lol! What happened to the OC? Just kidding I just finally seen the finale of it. Work sucks and especially when you fret about it.

Murder, She Wrote Memories

In what has become a theme of mine I would like to say I really love to watch Murder, She Wrote! I tell people this who I barely know. As if to get all my weird and quirky habits and likes out in front, you know just in case it is love!

I really do love Murder, She Wrote. It is a classic. I also really like Diagnoses Murder and Matlock. These are great shows and a delight to watch on tv. Dallas stills holds a near and dear place in my heart. Growing up with my grandparents they always watched this and Murder, She Wrote. My grandpa looked a lot like Matlock too.

When I was younger I hate these shows and I only got to stay up on these nights because these were deemed family shows. Was I allowed to stay up to watch Murphy Brown, Roseanne or the Golden Girls? No, No, and hell No! I would sneak myself up in the middle of the night to see such delights. Hehe! I'm a dork I know!

Humor As A Bandaid!

I have been told by those close to me that I use humor to hide my inner sadness. I guess I notice this too. I remember finding my humor when my grandfather became sick. He had cancer and it looked dim that he would make it. We were a pentecostal family. Italian-Irish breed. We were strong in faith and in family!

This however all came crushing down for me when I heard my grandpa utter the words "Why God, why?"! He had tried so valiantly to get up off his bed to simply go to the bathroom. He was so weak, but yet so stubborn. He didn't ask for help like always. Then he fell. He fell between the entertainment center and his hospital bed. He was too weak, we were unable to find a way to help him out of this predicament.

This, was where my grandfather took a turn for the worst. He was my father figure. The man who taught me to stand straight, respect woman and always put God first! He succumbed to the cancer just a few days before my birthday. I had to grow a lot that day. He died at 3:00 am on the dot. I wake up around 3am a lot and think of him.

I used humor to cover the pain of losing my grandpa. I used it to get out of fights at school. No one is liked for beating up the funny likable kid hehe! I used it to cover up my sexuality or my nervousness. I used it when the guy I liked decided we couldn't see one another anymore. I have grown a lot since then, but one thing continues...I use humor to cover how I feel.

I hate it!

I want to be able to tell someone I like them and not just joke around with them. I want to let people know when they hurt me that they hurt me. Not just brush it off with a casual joke and then sit empty staring at my picture of the San Francisco skyline hoping and wishing! You know when I'm real sad, I put on Julia Roberts in My Best Friends Wedding and skip to the dinner table scene where they break out into "Say a Little Prayer For You"!

I love that!

I know one day I will find romance and love. I know that there is someone who will accept me for me. One of the best things to ever happen to me was finding my best friend, Nia! She is a lesbian and has helped me come to terms with myself. She helped me in more ways then she will ever know. I owe her my sanity cause she sure save me from losing it!

No More Idol Joy, All Puns Included!

I am downloading a new video of my ramblings as we speak. Its pretty good if I do say so myself. Megan Joy got a very rude boot from Idol tonight. Simon was not into her after she made a few poor song choices. She was very pretty and had gorgeous teeth. They all do...they must get them done before they take on the top 12 or something. Too perfect if you ask me and you did!


Paula always seems refreshed on the result show. She was really waisted last night and I love her for it. Be yourself Paula and the world will love you. She was a bit out there though. She talked in riddles that only Nick Cage could sort out to understand. Then again Simon's accent was coming on strong too. Hmmm maybe I was the drunk one last night hehe!


Is it just me or did you want to vote off Lady Gaga? I know I did. I just waited for Simon to rip her and tell her she was going home. She was horendous, but Lady Perez Hilton just loves her which I guess makes her ok by me! Then that other drag queen, David cook came up and reminded us all why he lost...oh yeah he won...damn! Well I voted for him to be in the bottom 3.


Anoop keeps chugging along. Kris has a nice ass and he was showing it off last night! I was like damn boy! I mean Adam always looks good, but Kris really did a number on me...which I wouldn't mind. Married men are great, in bed...you know what I am saying? I know you do. It was a rhetorical question. Oh don't blame yourself hun, they all fall for that one.